Friday, December 5, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
II- Can molestation change straight to gay?
Could being a pretty boy have as much to do with becoming gay as a gay gene? Or being the victim of a molestation over a period of time? Questions I have asked myself for many years.
I- Gay gene or what?
Here is the video, part I, Doc and I made as I wondered whether there was a prominent gay gene in my ancestry or whether environment played a bigger role in creating a shadow man father and I thought grandfather, too.
Girl and horse on a trip back into the past
Connie sent me this graphic, thank you, Connie, but when I try to send her an e-mail AOL says her box is full, so Connie if you see this, please send me your new e-mail address if you have one. This graphic seems apropos with my activities this morning, more trips back into the past to try to understand a lot of troubling things that happened then. Doc and I did some more videos on the subject of the gay gene which I started thinking about a lot when it began to be talked about. I wondered if my dad had the gay gene or if his homosexual activities were occupational as well as connected to his alcoholism and the loss of inhibitions. I thought my love of horses and cow punching with my dad put me in harms way. Since he had to do that work from the time he was a little child, his sexuality may have been shaped by the camping out with hired men who had no qualms about targeting a boy to satisfy sexual desires. My grandfather acted like he was too preoccupied with his own tendencies in that direction to be too protective. He was so defensive nobody could talk to him about stuff like that. My mother told him if he did not stop attacking my father with his bull whip when he was over 30 years old she would not stay with him. So my grandfather never went after my dad again with his bull whip. My dad told me that everytime he got mad at this boys if he had his whip he would wrap it around their bodies. Once he went to hit his son Reed who was in the throes of a nervous breakdown, and my dad rode between them and took the blows. My dad also had trouble forgiving my grandfather for killing his pet bulldog when he would not let go of a calf he was chasing. He knew sic 'em, but bulldogs have trouble letting go once they have clamped on. Tempers ran high when they were cutting cattle. Cutting cattle with my dad was something I tried never to do if I could help it, he screamed and hoillered so loud The only time he ever hit me, so hard he knocked me down, we were doing something with cattle at the big corral and I didn't understand his order to bring the horse forward. Those were the days!
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Getting into our 10 Xmas outfits
Here is Doc in his Xmas shirt to match his hat with the green hat band and I in my teddy bear Xmas shirt. We must find costumes for our Christmas album. I think this might be a slightly comic one of country songs sung well by Doc and terrible by me as his bad GF singer with the ever burning desire to sing. We might put some of this up on Youtube but our album will be sent to you if I have your address unless you protest! Only because we love and want to reward our fans. If I dont have your address I will honor all your requests for one if you send me your address. I have not broke the news to Doc yet, because if I did he would have me filming this album day and night from now til Xmas. He forced me to make an after Thanksgiving one to send to my sister Ann who he regards as his best fan. She is kind.
I am going to go to the theater this afternoon with my friends Nola and Joyce, thanks to Joyce's free tickests for a black theater company play in the Viad Playhousse just up the street. I just love that theater. It's perfect for their company. I have been thinking all morning about what to wear, I think my new red blouse and black velvet pants and a black cap. Those ladies who attend are stylish! Sticking to a Xmas color!
Xmas has lifted my spirits as I hope it does yours. I mailed the first of my packages of books to go north to Utah today. Two to my sister Ann. I have another big one to send later on. I have some for my sister Margie and my niece Cheryl. I am going to pick out one for my niece Carissa in SF. I hope I can find one she does not have in her remarkable library. I don't think Raymond will want one while he is still traveling around, so I will hold up on his. I am still looking for special ones. Talley ho and good shopping!
Monday, December 1, 2008
3- Pedofile show and tell
In my last segment of this series on the pedofile I am still talking about the difficulty some children have in telling about molesting, I think boys a lot more than girls. I have tried to study in depth, child molestation throughout generations, and it still continues to be a very troubling manifestation. The latest wrinkle is using the Internet to lure the unseuspecting. Child porno seems to have expanded with the help of the Internet. I say we have to focus on it with dialogue. Nothing is going to change if we don't actively think about and tackle the problem. What do you think?
Christmas shopping has commenced!
I am one of those people that likes to open and give presents all during December, so I have given Doc his first one, two new towels from Mervyn's going out of business sale to go with the cranberry bath mat I bought him several weeks ago, pictured in the photo above. He needed to get rid of those ratty old towels NOW.
Here I am in my new Christmas hat.
I have been to the thrift store this morning and bought a brand new pair of black boots for around $3.50. Today was senior citizen 30 percent off day. I love this store! I take size 11 in boots so I rarely find any my size in the thrift store.
I bought wrapping paper, very pretty. I also found Doc a Xmas shirt that will match his hat with the green hat band! And several books to add to my collection, from which I will select book gifts for the family. That is always so much fun matching up books with personalities and interests.
Raymond caught a bad cold in the damp weather in L.A., but I hope the sun came out today and warmed him up. I am finding his blog fascinating, so if you aren't too busy check out how a playwright takes his plays to L.A. and finds a way to get them up. He should blog this experience. He will be making history. (Not many try this) http://cowboysandbohemians.blogspot.com
I even enjoyed the bus ride with all of humanity having fun getting ready for Xmas it seems. The whole bus load was in a good mood
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