Monday, December 22, 2008
2- My exH beat me up for being fat and ugly
I could not believe that putting on weight would bring on such abuse from my exH who drank and smoked. He would call me 'fat ass' constantly even when my weight gain was very gradual, and then this became part of the reason, I was sure, that he would threaten physical violence and sometimes carry it out. I put on about 25 pounds the ten years I was with him. I told him that his ugly behavior while drinking did not inspire me to stay a perfect size 10. In fact it caused me to eat for comfort after he had terrorized me when drunk. This got to be our pattern throughout our marriage. My exH never put on a pound of weight but could not acknowledge that drinking and smoking was every bit as bad as overeating. He had a much worse temper than I did, which he invariably lost under the influence. Then I had to wonder if I would survive the night. I guess I was digging down to some of these memories in these videos with Doc, trying to get at the reasons I started putting on weight in the first place.
Alone and poor with two kids to raise since I hardly got any help at all from him, I put on more weight over the years. I never really trusted men again, although if a BF threatened physical violence I soon sent him on his way, as I had to do with the father of my next two children. I vowed I would never tolerate the physical abuse I did in my first marriage, no matter what I had to do. I virtually raised my last two children alone. Such experiences caused me to distrust men and relationships to the max. But I never lost my desire to have children who I enjoyed more than any people in my life. They made all the struggle worth it.
This might not seem like a Xmas video, but it is funny and true. Now is the season that so many overeat. Maybe this video will slow the overeating down a little. Ha. I hope so.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Blog Archive
-
▼
2008
(104)
-
▼
December
(41)
- Doc sings karaoke country for New Years ala Nelson...
- 2- Doc is an old drinking singer and I cant carry ...
- 1- Doc and I discuss our Xmas Karaoke DVD I actual...
- New Years Eve party of the past
- Memories of Christmas pasts: Pierre's decorated lobby
- Doc with "Robbie, the robot" cranked up for our af...
- Fooling around customizing my blog some
- Catching up on blogs, my own life and family
- Family meets before a trek to cousins' house for d...
- Doc and I sang and sang on Christmas Eve...
- 4- Doc dreams of the rich cheerleading seniors of ...
- 3- My rival told Pierre I was too ugly for him
- The camera does not lie: it reveals our confidence...
- 2- My exH beat me up for being fat and ugly
- In my new tye dye hat making merry and thinking, t...
- 1- Deceased BF Pierre pays me a call sober
- I am going to get a little Christmassy here
- Daughter Ronda graduates as a nurse from ASU today
- 4- Avoid psychiatrists who might declare you insane!
- "My cup runneth over" Rick (Doc)
- Christmas shopping is coming right along!
- 3- Disability is the kiss of death to popularity
- 2- When his 160 I.Q. towers over my 130 I.Q.
- I love this card! Thanks, Connie!
- 1- His long pants and my unpopularity in high school
- Doc's hats inspire Connie!
- 3- A superiority complex cripples the intelligent ...
- 2- The mental illness of the rich
- Doc and I are enjoying making videos, laughing it ...
- I-When capitalists loot the democracy, recession r...
- VI- Parents fail to respond appropriately to a ped...
- V- Is there a pedofile gene?
- Two Xmas trees better than one, pedofile videos, a...
- IV- Gay gene or molestation? How do we find out wh...
- III- Do we judge the victims of molestation?
- II- Can molestation change straight to gay?
- I- Gay gene or what?
- Girl and horse on a trip back into the past
- Getting into our 10 Xmas outfits
- 3- Pedofile show and tell
- Christmas shopping has commenced!
-
▼
December
(41)
1 comment:
I'm sorry you had to put up with this abuse Gerry. Women can sure get themselves into some bad situatons which seem to have no solution at the time. Merry Christmas to you and Doc and may your New Year bring you much happiness.
Post a Comment