Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Closer and closer to death

The man who has been trying to kill himself for over a month is still at it. I saw him a little while ago, and he looked a good deal more haggard, dark circles starting to form under his eyes, his face bruised where he has fallen. He was begging money from everyone to buy more beer. This is a man who cannot stop once he starts. He has been taken away inumerable times by paramedics but as soon as he gets where he is going to a hospital, or somewhere, he leaves and comes home again, and they say they cannot hold an alcoholic against his will.
Yesterday in a brief conversation he remembered that he had been sober for some time (5 years) since he tried to kill himself like this before, ended up in a coma from bleeding into the stomach He looks to me like he is not far from being able to die now. Don't know if anyone will realize it this time. They were barely able to save him last time.
It's pretty painful to be watching all this happening, it seems to have disturbed all the other alcoholics. Maybe they will see what is in store for them as their appetite for alcohol inevitably grows larger, while their body's tolerence for it grows less. This is like watching a man with a terminal disease wasting away. His will to drink is stronger than anybody else's power to stop him. Alcoholism is a terrible disease. This is very close to a death watch.

7 comments:

Lori said...

It is a very terrible disease. I feel pity for the man, but I can't help wishing he'd had the willpower to stop when he could. It's probably too late now, and this probably is a death watch.

Amrita said...

very sad to read this Gerry

Malagutigrrl said...

For a minute I thought you were talking about Doc but then realized it was someone else, thank god...

Pamela said...

I thought you were referring to Doc! What a relief it's not him! Sorry about this guy...but what can you do?
Take care of yourself, ok?

Ann said...

I guess people can only be called in when the emergency happens. He might be like Vic and die alone at night. I wish something could be done, but what?
It's hard to control someone that refuses to be controlled!

Gerry said...

This guy is the guy I liked before Doc, and I was still attached to him because of Doc being impaired which he soon realized. Ever since his last near death experience he traveled out of body all the time. I am beginning to realize that he probably never recovered enough from his last near death experience to connect, so he was like Doc, impaired. He still had feelings but could not connect in other ways. However, out of respect for his present girlfriend I could not disclose this in my article. I wanted to note that that the whole complex has become involved in his suicidal drinking.

Connies Photos said...

My daddy drank every day-but I never saw him drunk..the day he poured his beer down the drain and said it didn't taste good anymore was the day I knew he didn't have much longer on this earth...and was right..cancer got him before the alcohol did..either way it's not a nice way to go...I'll pray for your friend that he leaves this earth peacefully..without pain and torment...my daddy suffered for months before he was called home...love you Gerry-you are genuine and aren't afraid to show your feelings..Doc if you're you're listening..there IS a lesson in there for ya...we love you too ,ya know!!!


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