I have hardly been able to enjoy my cataract surgery results for being put on the defensive about my intent to publish my memoirs of childhood in book form. I don't know what I can do to make my sister accept this. At the moment she is pretty steamed. I did not discuss my opinion that our father was a bisexual for 55 years because I knew it might get this kind of reaction. The family has been more or less warring over it ever since I first told what I thought 20 years ago.
I had not before now got around to planning to publish a memoir including this opinion. I don't know if my sister thinks this will hurt her family's reputation, maybe even affect her kids and grandkids, but my contention is that she does not have to admit she is related to the author of the book if that will help. Besides Doc said today he can only afford to finance about 75 copies. How much damage could 75 copies in circulation do to her family's reputation?
My sister is even wondering if I am lesbian since I am so obsessed with this subject. I said no, but if I was I would surely admit it. I can't see anything too wrong with being a lesbian, myself, since I do not think people can help those feelings. I have read a number of lesbians' blogs. I think some of them are very creative and are good thinkers. I do not mind that they are lesbian but that is me. And I am just not willing to let anyone's opinion stop me from writing what I think is the truth, finally, after all these years.
I know that most bisexuals, just because so many people disapprove, will not admit it. My dad was certainly one of those number, but sometimes you run up against the fact whether your parent admits it or not. I thought both of my molesters might have had affairs with my dad and had since gotten very angry at him so that thoughts of revenge entered into their attack on me. Since my dad's relationship with them might have motivated them to attack me, I think I should be able to say that in my memoir.
My sister was not molested and did not have to ponder this weighty subject for 55 years without even telling anyone what she thought was the whole story. This complication kept me from even telling my parents I was molested, for heaven's sakes. It was too closely tied for me to ignore that factor, so I just kept quiet and tried to handle it myself. But even that fact does not cut any ice with my sister. So we are having a heated disagreement.
I am still going ahead and starting my memoirs this week. I am planning to publish them in book form, come what may. I can't talk to my sister on the phone. I fear we would just fight. So we are just passing long opinions back and forth on the family site. That's the latest on the family front. I have also discussed the family war on Youtube which you can view if you can stand to.
P.S. Something else to be happy about besides half of my cataracts off--my son Dan has been here cleaning up my computer, deleting a bunch of stuff Dante put on there, installing Mozilla Firefox browser for me to use instead of Explorer 8, and doing systems restore, and so far I believe what he has done has solved my problems. I feel bad because he is probably going to severely curtain his son's access to Grandma's computer. He says jokingly when his son gets a computer and is on line he will go over and install a bunch of crazy stuff on it to see how he likes it! He seemed slightly surprised at how much his son had managed to put on my computer, but I said he works 15 hours sometimes without let up to get all that done when he visits his grandma.
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Thursday, January 7, 2010
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