Doc tries controlled drinking again as gift from tenant moving cheers

Which you and I know will not work, but it may keep him from DTs for a while, but what it will do is keep him thinking about drinking all the time, like a gambler who can't give up gambling. I think the problem is he is highly resistent to the idea of changing your life completely in that regard, so that you can really think about something else besides drinking.
Being a foodaholic you have to keep eating, so controlling your intake of certain kinds of food becomes your goal because you can't quit eating entirely. I suppose this is why people consider such procedures as stomach reduction and gastric bypass. Our manager for example who had become frighteningly obese finally went to a gastric bypass which has been highly successful for her. I know she was desperate when she did it, and her daughter was even more obese so she soon followed suit.
I was watching Oprah yesterday who had a doctor on there talking about the healthy heart. He asked her to come over to his stand and I was shocked to see that she had gained even more weight. She was all dressed in black and acted like she had not intended to show herself like that on camera. I would say she is having one heck of a time with weight right now.
I went to sleep and dreamed that I got on her show, but I did not even know I was going to be on it, it happened so fast, and I was trying to take it in. I was trying very hard to figure out why she has lost so much control of her weight problem.
I am a lot more encouraged about my weight now that I have become a vegan and my food choices are a lot more limited. Chips are my downfall right now. I need to stay away from them entirely. I am still wearing the same clothes but have not started going down, so they hang loose on me. That's my next goal. But I am being tempted! So what can I say to Doc who is obviously being tempted, too, and succumbing.
I talked to the man who sobered up with a miracle and he said his worst problem is getting bored. I said oh, I get bored, too! And that has often been the reason I ate. I have been going out in the patio every afternoon and talking to people. I know I can't initiate a more healthy preoccupation just sitting in my apartment alone. It won't happen. I am surprised at how much better I feel if I just talk a little while to some neighbors.
The smokers all go out front to smoke which is another difficult vice to quit. In the patio they are more apt to be out there walking their dogs or just taking in the out of doors.
I was disappointed in Doc for alittle while. I couldn't help it. I am sure you are disappointed, too, with the difficulty of his problem, but I have the choice of distancing myself which I am doing when his problem starts depressing me too much. He just sits in his apt. and watches TV.
I also shampooed my old carpet. I decided I could not hurt it, so I did it with a sponge mop. It looks considerably better and was quite good exercise.
Someone moving also dropped a big ottoman right in front of me out in the patio and said you or anybody can have this. I went and got a cart to move it on. It is in very good condition and will turn my big recliner into a couch as much as possible because of its height. It is just want I wanted. I 'ordered' it months ago which is what I do with recycling. I send thoughts of what I want out into the airways. How else could someone with an ottoman to give away stop and dump it off at the exact time I was out in the patio and say, 'you can have this?" I was startled. This is called synchronicity. It is beyond being a coincidence. In fact I had told Jeff if he ever saw one being given away I wanted one. I regard this gift as a sign of the power of the mind! A good omen.

Karen's Memorial Service and saying good-bye

I was pleased to see a large gathering in the ballroom to say good-bye to Karen, including several members of the staff, which testifies to her ability to connect to people. I was happy to meet her father for the first time who she had talked about a lot. He was a gentle soul which I must say surprised me as I had pictured him as a more truculant fellow and he was not. He was quick to tears at losing a daughter, although he does not look as though he will live many more years. Her mother did not attend as she lives in another state and is not doing well because of her diabetis, which Karen may have inherited from her.
I found out that Karen was having pain in her shoulder and had asked her closest friend who had a key to her apartment to respond if there was an emergency. So she must have some misgivings, but Ron said that he did not ever expect to have to respond as she suggested because "she was doing so well." I was so glad to hear that she had been doing well as I had thought. Her death was not expected by anyone. You might say in this case we were by death surprised.
Some said she had risen to a personal high in feelings of fulfillment in some new mosaic art work she was learning how to do. She had fallen in love with it just as she had previously fallen in love with quilting.
We were asked to give remarks if we chose, and I talked about the long period of time we were each other's closest neighbors, around 7 or 8 years, much longer than I thought. Her sister was really grieving. A brother was there and one brother did not make it. I described thinking of her as kind of a daughter and giving her bowls of soup, especially after she had her heart attack and cautioning her to look after her health better, as she hated having diabetis and did not accept it well. Most of them laughed as they knew this Karen well. Her cat Freeway was almost as well known as she was. I also thought back and reported that in all those years Karen and I did not exchange a cross word. If you were completely civil to Karen she appreciated it and responded in kind, even though she did have issues with some people and was not afraid to speak her mind. There were times when she was working through a lot of difficulties. I never got into her personal problems as I always think that is a mistake in complex like this, with so many with severe problems. It is not healthy! And she would never lay anything on you you did not ask her about. So despite any inner conflicts she was experiencing, she was considerate of boundaries. Which is probably why so many people came to tell her good-bye.